Saturday was Jessica's birthday shindig which was pleasing, although we (being Alex/Danny/Maria/Madelyn) wreaked havoc all over poor Dolphin Mall. Jessica doesn't want to turn sixteen, she says she feels old. It's funny because, I feel like I want to age, but every birthday that's passed I don't feel any much older. I want to be a baby forever but I also want to feel what it's like to be an adult. I don't know, the future seems so scary, but I hope everything I ever want to do is able to be done. I don't know how I'd feel if I was unaccomplished, in the long run. I mean, I've felt that before, the emptiness you feel when you know you've done a poor job on something you know you could've made amazing. It's such a terrible feeling. Hopefully later on, my efforts will be rewarded. I'll make it happen.